tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48448860133261277362024-03-08T04:54:48.273-08:00Everyday ThoughtsAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15047923372137529272noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4844886013326127736.post-39707918310353838102018-10-15T00:34:00.004-07:002018-10-15T00:34:38.762-07:00How the Fire was Set<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
was a girl that got too attached,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">When
she thought no one will ever match,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Triggered
darkness, sadness and pain,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Oh,
how it hurts, it never wanes.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
was a girl who tried to forget,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Tried
rekindling the light that was once broken,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Hours,
days, years has passed,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">The
light never worked, it seems it was a bust.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Soon,
it worsened 'til it dragged her down,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Her
thoughts a day were making her drown,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Some
say everyone has the cure,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
believed, and in the end she was fooled.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Enough!
enough of these lies,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">When
it was nothing but the cause of the fire,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">It
will get better, she says so herself,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Feeding
herself lies again, and again.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Her
head up high, moving forward with herself,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Escaping
to the other side on the shelf,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">One
day she thought it wasn't enough,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Still
ended at the same miserable hole she went.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
kept blaming herself, how messed up was she,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Tired
and confused, her mind like a banshee,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
thought she was really out of her mind,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Nothing
else to think of on how to unwind.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Many
have lost it, can't handle the pain,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
kept wondering why her white-dress unstained,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Someone
keeps telling, just hold on,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Someone
above the skies who keeps on watching.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
thought of it and promised not to act,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
thinks the dark is only playing in fact,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But
how long, this agony will pursue?</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Calisto MT","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">She
kept hoping it won't let her be consumed. </span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15047923372137529272noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4844886013326127736.post-19449055503822931192018-10-14T20:18:00.000-07:002018-10-14T20:18:29.984-07:0022<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">So, I just turned twenty-two last Saturday. Nothing's changed. Well, still hoping to feel...normal. Anyway, only had a small "family-only" gathering minus my dad since he was on travel, when it was supposed to be a "family-and-closest-friends-only" gathering but, as they said, they were off for the weekend. I'm not complaining, it's totally fine. The fewer the better. Nevertheless, I don't even like celebrating. Yeah, I sound so negative lol. But believe me when I say, I am grateful for another year of existence and I wish for a longer life, to experience what's to come. Cheers!</span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15047923372137529272noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4844886013326127736.post-1568563724340968852018-10-10T19:13:00.000-07:002018-10-10T19:15:02.684-07:00Ego<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Today, I have been thinking about yesterday. When I easily let my ego get struck by words; that I thought were like knives. I have that problem which leads to my insecurity, and then turns into anxiety, and depression. How do I get rid of this side of me? I keep telling myself to stop being so pessimistic, not to let words bring me down. But it is too hard for me. Too much fear of being judged by the people around me with their thoughts or words, or even with their stares alone. I have been on this cycle for years now. Worst case scenario was when I wallowed myself in self-pity for a year. Surprised to say that I'm still standing despite being so tired. But for how long? How long am I able to cope with this? I need help.</span></div>
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